Old age, I decided, is a gift.
I am now, probably for the first time in my life, the person I have always wanted to be. Oh, not my body! I sometime despair over my body - the wrinkles, the baggy eyes and the sagging butt. And often I am taken aback by that old person that lives in my mirror, but I don't agonize over those things for long.
I would never trade my amazing friends, my wonderful life, my loving family for less gray hair or a flatter belly. As I've aged, I've become more kind to myself and less critical of myself. I've become my own friend. I don't chide myself for eating that extra cookie, or for not making my bed, or for buying that silly cement gecko that I didn't need, but looks so avante garde on my patio. I am entitled to overeat, to be messy, to be extravagant. I have seen too many dear friends leave this world too soon; before they understood the great freedom that comes with aging.
Whose business is it if I choose to read until 4:00 am and sleep until noon? I will dance with myself to those wonderful tunes of the 50s & 60s, and if I, at the same time, wish to weep over a lost love, I will. I will walk the beach in a swim suit that is stretched over a bulging body and will dive into the waves with abandon if I choose to, despite the pitying glances from the bikini set. They, too, will get old.
I know I am sometimes forgetful. But there again, some of life is just as well forgotten and I eventually remember the important things. Sure, over the years my heart has been broken. How can your heart not break when you lose a loved one, or when a child suffers, or even when a beloved pet gets hit by a car? But broken hearts are what give us strength and understanding and compassion. A heart never broken is pristine and sterile and will never know the joy of being imperfect.
I am so blessed to have lived long enough to have my hair turn gray and to have my youthful laughs be forever etched into deep grooves on my face.
So many have never laughed and so many have died before their hair could turn silver. I can say "no" and mean it. I can say "yes" and mean it. As you get older, it is easier to be positive. You care less about what other people think. I don't question myself anymore. I've even earned the right to be wrong.
So, to answer your question, I like being old. It has set me free. I like the person I have become. I am not going to live forever, but while I am still here, I will not waste time lamenting what could have been, or worrying about what will be. And I shall eat dessert every single day.
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Adi Sankara, who propagated bhakti movement and showed us six types of prayers, lived only 32 years. Tamil saint Tirugnanasambandar lived half that many years; yet he is celebrated as first among equals: if you go to any Saivite temple, you will find him occupying prime position, followed by other saints such as Sundarar and Manickavasagar. In fact, Tirugnanasambandar is considered to be an avatar of Murugan, as per Arunagiri Nadhar, Vallalar and other savants, said P. Swaminathan in a discourse.
Siva temples resonate during his guru puja day. Born in Seergazhi as the son of Sivapadha Irudhayar, he attained moksha in Tirunaloorthirumanam, known as Achalpuram today. As a toddler he was blessed to have sucked gnana from Goddess Umayal, after which he started rendering poems. At three years of age, he received all graces and rendered Ammai, Appan, songs. The pasuram Thodudaya Seliyan sprang out of him spontaneously after the darshan of Siva and Umayal at Seergazhi temple. After God’s grace, Sambandar embarked on yatras to spread Sanatana Dharma. As he was still a child, and could not walk long distances, his father and other Sivan adiyars used to carry him on their shoulders as he spread bhakti among people everywhere.